My sweet Phil, 3 years today since you have entered eternity...
An hour after I left you and went to sleep, your night nurse woke you up to take meds and she showed you my note. You were back to sleep.
A bit before midnight you stopped breathing on your own during your sleep. No pains. They connected you to the breathing machine, they sedated you. you didn't woke up through all these. I believe that you didn't feel any of these... your sufferings have come to an end.
I was still sleeping in my room, 4 buildings away, knowing nothing..
Oct 2 (2014) at about 03:00am (Calgary time) I woke up, scared to death, strong fast heartbeats, from knocking on my door at my room in the hostel. shaking all over I opened to the security man who asked: "are you Alysia ? Is your boyfriend in the ICU ? You need to go there". I asked him to wait a min and to walk with me. shaking all over, from cold and from dread. we walked to the ICU. 10 min walk. The security man gave me a chewing gum to calm me down. He was a kind man.
When we arrived to the ICU they didn't allow me to get into your room. I waited outside the room. Totally shaking. The night nurse came and told me that you stopped breathing during your sleep. They were still working on you.
I called your parents. They came so fast. I needed them. To hold each other. Otherwise I would have being crashing to the floor...
Then we were allowed into your room. You were so pale... you looked tired but so beautiful .. with all the machines.. and the lines...
Your always warm hands, my sweetie, were now cold and I knew that you are no longer with us... I asked the ICU dr if there is any chance that you will recover now and he said no.
Early in the morning I texted dear Fr. McDonnell. He came quite fast. He told us that it is a special day, Feast day of the Holy Guardian Angels.
He prayed for you the most beautiful prayer I ever heard, describing how the Saints and Angels will be soon welcoming you into heaven......
I think it was the Litany of the Saints.
Tears flowing... we stood around you, your father, Daryl hugged me with his strong arms, reminded me of your strength & courage even in the thoughest moments.... he has raised you so wonderful over the years to be THE Batman... your beautiful mother, Donna, with her good caring eyes, so much like the goodness & compassion in your eyes... her goodness, love, caring & kindness which have raised you over the years to be the kindest sweet soul I ever knew....
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Oct 2 (2014) at about 10:30am morning (Calgary time) you flied high, with your Batman's wings, straight to heaven. fast. no pains. Peacefully.
Embraced by tremendous love.... enveloping us with your love & Faith.
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... all tears, I kissed your beautiful forehead and I told you:
"goodbye sweetie. I love you".
you still had your sweet smell....
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"the Lord gave,
and the Lord hath taken away:
as it hath pleased the Lord
so is it done:
blessed be the name of the Lord".
(Job, 1:21)
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