Hi Guys,
Remember me? Yea ... I haven't been around for a bit. I don't really have a good reason for not being here. I know I was sort of avoiding anything that had to do with being sick, or Wegener's, or Cancer or anything of the sort. I wanted it to be out of my mind. For awhile, as I am sure many of you know, it seemed like the only thing I talked about, the only thing people thought of when they thought of me, and all I could ever associate anything with. I needed a mental break.
There is also a major guilt factor that kept coming up. I'm not as sick as a lot of you. I feel almost guilty that I am able to live the life that I am able to. It isn't fair that people I know and care for are struggling so much to live a life that seems easy for me. Even when I was my sickest, I was worlds better than others and I feel terrible for that. It isn't fair! I would trade places in a heartbeat so that others can live.
I've been busy. I work 85 hours a week still. My husband keeps starting projects on the house that cost money. We are finally on the same page and budgeting so that maybe I can get some of this junk paid off so I can work less.
I mentioned last time I was here that I was eating differently. Only meat and veggies and water. Sounds crappy, but it's fabulous. When I have cheat days and eat what I am not supposed to there is an actual physical difference. I feel awful. So, I am sticking to what I know now. I'm down 43 lbs. I feel better. My blood work is better. I don't take any of my medications anymore. I go for my next round of blood work on 08/15/14. We'll see if things are still better.
I have been having a bit of pain in my sinuses, but they are clear ... and my ENT will chalk it up to migraines again, so I haven't gone in. My voice is scratchy all the time now. But ... again ... he'll say its nothing. So I haven't gone in. I have horrific leg cramps at night but that's a potassium issue from a lack of bananas. Other than that ... things are OK.
I wrote 2 novels. I've been busy trying to get an agent for them. One of them involves cancer and I poured my heart into it. One of the agents has asked to read some sample chapters so I am crossing my fingers so hard that he takes it. I am thinking of doing something about Wegener's ... but I am not sure yet.
So that's about it. I'm still here, still plugging away. I promise not to be such a stranger anymore.
Hope everyone is doing good. I'm all caught up on the forum now.
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